Your neurons still aren't working right. This isn't about what YOU took from a specific person, it is about the collective power that white people have.
But here's what you can do: the next time you get accepted to college or get a promotion, consider your privilege. Just don't assume you earned it.
You're embedded in a white supremacist system that gives white people things at the expense of everybody else. That's why we are forced to question the quality of white people who achieve; they are often getting things with much less effort, and sometimes none at all.
Neurons have to be fired, or they don't work. Consider firing some.